Today is another day of crying together, and trying to laugh together. Thank God for the great-grandchildren, Thomas and Rylie, who try to add happiness to everyone.
The hardest part for me is when Mom cries. I try so hard to be strong for her, but I'm not succeeding very well at this point. I now feel that everyday, from now until we lose her, will be grief-ridden and sad.
PLEASE READ THAT AGAIN.....I FEEL EVERYDAY, FROM NOW UNTIL WE LOSE HER, WILL BE GRIEF-RIDDEN AND SAD.
THAT STATEMENT IS WHY I'VE DECIDED TO WRITE THIS DIARY.
I know that I'm not the first person to go through a trying time like this. I know many, many have gone through this with their parents, spouses, siblings, friends, and worst of all....children. I feel I am engulfed in complete doom. I know I will feel like this until we lose Mom. It's hard to breathe, I don't want to eat, every smile is forced. I want to curl up in a ball and cry. I don't want to face anyone, talk to anyone. The anguish overtakes me. No one understands. How can I help Mom when I am a complete mess myself? I just cannot describe the sadness and hopelessness I am feeling. It's overtaken every part of my body. I will never be able to live a day normally during this time. I'll just be like this til then.
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