October 6, 2009

It was a restless night for Tina, Krista and me.  We shifted sleeping arrangements all throughout the night and we all slept with one eye open and ears listening.  Every once in a while Mom would ask for ice...meaning ice chips.  Her breathing is heavy, with her chest rising high and lowering to what seems, her back.  It appears steady, and uninterruped to me.  It is the only thing in her body that is, I believe, not compromised.

Today would have been Mom's day to have Emma do her hair, and Emma came and fluffed it up here at her home.  Actually, she came to spend time with Mom and visit with us and....we always love to have her here.

Angel Jayme came and spent time with us talking about Mom and working with her meds to keep her as comfortable as possible.  She's amazed, too, that Mom's hanging on and asked us if we knew of a reason that she might not be wanting to give up.  We really don't, and  Mom has been saying more often now that she's tired and she's ready.  I guess it's just not God's time, yet.

Jayme suggested we keep very quiet around her, saying that sometimes they are leaving, but hear something and then come back.  For the most part today she has rested peacefully, only asking for ice a few times.  When Eddie came with her mail, I tried to wake her so she could see him, but without much luck.

I called Tom at the funeral home this morning and asked if we could get some of the arrangements completed now.  Terry came about 2:00 and we were able to do most everything.  We will just need to take her clothing and firm up the times.  I feel it's a relief to have that part finished.

Aunt Ruth Ann brought us some delicious cinnamon muffins and jello, which, with Aunt Janet's salad made us a real nice lunch.  I told her, as I've said many times in these writings before, I feel bad that there are four 'moms' here and we've not cooked, except for Krista making the nice dinner last Sunday.  But it is so draining going through this, and we're sort of sleep deprived, and cooking seems like such a huge obstacle.  So once again an ENORMOUS THANK YOU to all of our friends and family for their goodnesses to us.