September 20, 2009

Carmalea got here around 9:30 and in true form, she dug right in and helped.  She brought a pineapple upside down cake and it was real good...even if she didn't make it herself!  She is the BEST cook ever and I was going to give her credit for making it since it was good, but she admitted she didn't!  LOL

Joyce from church came after Mass this morning and we received communion and she had a good conversation with Mom.  Joyce had tears when she left and said that Mom had touched her life and she found it difficult, too, to see Mom like this.  Joyce truly is a saint to us and to Mom.

Aunt Janet stopped after church and visited for awhile.  Mom is always happy to see her.

Mom is so bright and alert.  Nothing gets by her.  I'm sure she is hearing the whispers going on in the other rooms and I wonder what she is thinking.  We try to be very careful about doing that, but we're always talking to each other, questioning each other, supporting each other, and it can't be helped.  Mom still is talking about having a future.  I have the hardest time with that.  It breaks my heart.  Today she sent Tina to WalMart to pick up a blanket for her bed.  The one on the hospital bed is a queen size and she said that would be to heavy for her to carry back to her bedroom when she gets well. 

Aunt Ruth Ann, Amy, Emily & Adelynn came and the girls stayed here to play with Thomas and Rylie while Amy went home and made us homemade potato soup, with all the ingredients from her garden, and homemade bread.

She surprised us again and wanted to go into the bathroom.  Although she didn't have success, it gave me a chance to bathe her again.  Mom has a terrible odor and I thought bathing her would help get rid of it.  I washed her everywhere trying to scrub that odor away, but it's still there.  The girls changed her bedding.  Tina and I got online and read that the odor is coming from her pores as her body shuts down.

As I said, I have the hardest time when Mom talks about her future and getting better.  Tonight she asked me if she should drink some of the fruit drink that Hospice brought her to help get her strength back.  She has sores in her mouth and was afraid it might irritate the sores, but she wants to get strong again.  I told her to wait until tomorrow to see how her mouth feels....then I went to the back of the house so I could cry.  My heart aches so much for her.

Again, her urine was very clear today so I don't think she is bleeding internally.  She was restless this evening and even with her helpful pill.  She finally went to sleep for the night around midnight and slept well.