September 17, 2009

Mom woke up all bright-eyed today!  How wonderful!  She ate a couple little cookies as she took her morning medicine.  A little later she ate half a sloppy joe sandwich from the DQ!  Mike's been great about coming by with all kinds of fattening treats for all of us!  Mom needs them....I don't!  LOL

Lisa from Hospice came and checked her over.  BP 110/52.  Lisa got the ball rolling on getting a hospital bed here for Mom.  After Lisa left, Kris and Tina helped her into the bathroom and she had success there!  Mom mentioned that there was blood in the toilet, but she flushed it before we got to see.

 They brought the bed about 4:30 and we put it in the living room.  Mom has changed about so many things throughout this ordeal.  She was so opposed to having a hospital bed in her living room, yet she agreed willingly to it, knowing it would help comfort her.

Annette came over today...a bright spot in Mom's day.  Annette always adds laughter and picks everyone up!  She's a doll.

This evening she had another bowel movement and this time I saw it.  There were clots and bright blood.  I know this isn't good.

I feel so sad for Mom because she loves her home so much, loves the pretty way she has it arranged and decorated, has it JUST how she wants it.  I hate that we have to rearrange her things.  I want to keep it looking like she has always loved it.  I went to Wal-Mart with Tina and felt like my heart hit rock bottom.  I can't get the look on Mom's face out of my mind as they brought the bed in and things changed.  Yet, she didn't say a word.  I just want things to go on...quietly...like they have always been, with the subtle changes unnoticeable.  I want her to feel comfortable.  I want her to feel 'at home'.

I want to thank all of you who are reading this and sending such wonderful, warm, wishes and prayers to Mom and our family.  YOU are who keep us going through all of this.  I LOVE YOU ALL!