September 26, 2009

Mom had very little urine output overnight.  I don't like the weekends because our angels of Hospice aren't around.  I know they would be here if we need them, but they need their time off, too.  I just miss them.

Joyce brought communion and at the end of her prayers she prayed that Mom would have a comfortable and easy death.  We all looked at each other because that's the first time anyone has actually mentioned 'death' to Mom.  After Joyce left, Mom chuckled and said, "Everyone thinks that when you have Hospice that you are dying!"  That shows, in spite of her failing health, she is still hopeful.

There is something new.  A large lump on the front right side of her clavicle.  I'd describe it as the size of 1/2 of a golf ball. We'll have the nurse check it out Monday.

Emma, Mike, David, Max and Lindsay came.  Max and Lindsay are going to their first BGSU football game!  They're excited.  And even more excited that we are letting Max apply at BGSU since Lindsay was accepted there!

Jayme called from Hospice to check on Mom.  Kris took Mom's BP and it was 95/48, its getting lower.  Jayme told us to call at anytime we need them, at any hour, over the weekend.

Tina, Kris and I were able to get Mom to the commode next to the bed, but for the first time, I wasn't sure even the three of us together could get her back to bed.  It was a struggle and we nearly had to just lift her over, and everywhere we touched her caused pain.  Every day I don't think it will get worse, and it does.

After we got Mom back to bed, Tina took Thomas and Rylie to a movie to get them out of the house for awhile.  They have been angels sitting so good here in the house all week, and this was their first badly needed outing.  I'm so glad they got to get away for awhile and do something fun!

Mom slept all afternoon and nearly missed Aunt Ruth Ann and Amy's visit, but woke just as they were leaving.  They got to visit a few minutes before they left so Mom could go back to sleep.

Another one of our angels, Annette, brought us a full delicious dinner for us....hot out of the oven.  She brought a cheesy chicken casserole, my favorite broccoli casserole, roles and brownies.  She tried to burn my hand off when she handed me the HOT broccoli dish, and I told her that if I had known it was my favorite thing she makes I would have let it burn to the bone just so I wouldn't drop it....but I quickly handed it back to her because she had hot mits.  I'm sure my hand will heal nicely in a year or so.  Just kidding, Annette!!  Mom enjoyed a few bites of each dish.

Just when we think we've been spoiled enough and more than we deserve...Darla comes with Tetrazzine and my favorite "Darla Bars", ready to put in the oven for our dinner tomorrow.  You would think with all of us here that we could cook our own meals, but it seems we're always busy with things, and fortunate to have visitors, and frankly, too exhausted to cook.

Darla has been so much comfort and help to me.  She lost her dad similarly nearly a year ago and is so good to talk to me about what might happen and prepare us for the days ahead.  I know it's difficult because it reminds her of those painful days with her dad, but she's there for me and I love her for it.

Mom had the surprise visit of Jon, Jason, Amy, Davey, Breanna and Kaylynn tonight and they brought her a chicken leg from Brunson's!  She ate a few bites of it and a few bites of the Darla Bars, too.

Mom took her meds about 9:30 and is asleep hopefully for the night.